不知何时，我的心有时好酸。觉得有时真的好累。
谈恋爱难道是这样的吗？
当你觉得你的恋人其实不符合你所要的，你还会跟他在一起吗？
钱，难道很重要吗？
车，难道很重要吗？
有时候我觉得好累，好想象普通的恋人，去探险或者野餐。
但这一切都好遥远。。。
我已经慢慢地，不想讲了，不想要求了。
Monday, December 24, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
omg..i'm extremely shagged now. feel like throwing everything away altogether and whizzed myself into another planet. i'm so freaking tired nowadays. everyday is tuition, studying and projects. even though weekends i gotta go out with li but i just feel so tired! even walking makes me tired, sitting in car makes me tired. tired is just the word for me now..haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...................
Friday, October 5, 2007
haven been updating for very long. i feel shagged. too busy these few weeks and my body cant seems to take it anymore. i hardly had any rest day at all.
went for an organisation talk and i think i screwed up everything with my nervousness. the talk was prolonged for 1hour plus and poor li had to wait for me that long. when i met him, its very obvious that he's not happy but he denied it. he just say he's not feeling well. the things that i wanted to talk to him suddenly became nothing. we planned to catch the movie lust and caution but even the last slot had started half an hour ago. can see he was veri disappointed.
he drove me back and he said we should talk. the talk made me felt funny inside. it seems that something had already happened and made us grown apart. last night's talk still made me feel weird and i kinda expected something to happen.
went for an organisation talk and i think i screwed up everything with my nervousness. the talk was prolonged for 1hour plus and poor li had to wait for me that long. when i met him, its very obvious that he's not happy but he denied it. he just say he's not feeling well. the things that i wanted to talk to him suddenly became nothing. we planned to catch the movie lust and caution but even the last slot had started half an hour ago. can see he was veri disappointed.
he drove me back and he said we should talk. the talk made me felt funny inside. it seems that something had already happened and made us grown apart. last night's talk still made me feel weird and i kinda expected something to happen.
Monday, September 17, 2007
15th Sept 2007:
went to east coast park for li's dad bdae celebration. It was fun. we rode a 2-person seats bicycle and it was so cool. i dun have to peddle for so hard when we were going up the slope. everything is soooo relaxing and easy. we rode to changi beach in an hour's time and cycled back to east coast. our buttocks hurt. on the way back, we ate ice-cream and drank 100-plus. just nice, by the time we reached the bicycle shop, we can return the bicycle. den we walked back to our tent and played water with his sis and her bf and xiaobai! we threw xiaobai to the sea. cos he just refused to get near the sea. haha. its amazing to see him swim back. he's so cute. anyway, the day ended with me getting in and out of the toilet a few times. guess its cos of the chicken wings that i ate. i was soo tired at the end of the day...but it was fun!
17th Sept 2007:
li is in the army today..its his first day..hmmm..i miss him alot. i hope he will be okie and not think too much at night. i wished he will be out of tekong very soon. And, he had better call me..hehe..
went to east coast park for li's dad bdae celebration. It was fun. we rode a 2-person seats bicycle and it was so cool. i dun have to peddle for so hard when we were going up the slope. everything is soooo relaxing and easy. we rode to changi beach in an hour's time and cycled back to east coast. our buttocks hurt. on the way back, we ate ice-cream and drank 100-plus. just nice, by the time we reached the bicycle shop, we can return the bicycle. den we walked back to our tent and played water with his sis and her bf and xiaobai! we threw xiaobai to the sea. cos he just refused to get near the sea. haha. its amazing to see him swim back. he's so cute. anyway, the day ended with me getting in and out of the toilet a few times. guess its cos of the chicken wings that i ate. i was soo tired at the end of the day...but it was fun!
17th Sept 2007:
li is in the army today..its his first day..hmmm..i miss him alot. i hope he will be okie and not think too much at night. i wished he will be out of tekong very soon. And, he had better call me..hehe..
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
The time is 9.49am. have a lecture at 11.30am..but here i am, still writing a blog cos i've got some things to let out. However, i dunno how to express my thoughts in here. i seriously need to attend a lesson, a lesson that helps me to express my thought clearly without hurting anyone's feelings. the bottomline is, i need to learn to be more assertive and have a higher eq. gotta stop this entry now or else i'm going to be late for my class..tata. to be continued on next entry...........................................................
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Friday, August 17, 2007
chinese paladin
o, saw chinese paladin again..channel u replay it..i love the series esp when i look at the main leads..they are so pretty and handsome. o, bryan wong is also in it, he's acting as a scholar who carries a torch for his cousin and guo liang acting as a very high-skilled elder who will only appear later in the series.
some pictures i've dug out from the internet~enjoy~
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Yesterday, i shopped in school with april after our finance lecture. i bought a necklace, 3-4 books and ate yogurt ice-cream. some of the books only cost $1! total expenditure < $30. perhaps they might be relevant to my fyp or something. den li came fetch me from school and we went to his house as he desperately needs a shower. talked to his parents for awhile, saw a few minutes of my favorite replay china tv series den we took a bus to JP for movie.
bought tickets for 'rush hour 3' at JP and we thought we could use a movie discount voucher which is worth $2. too bad, the guy told us that it is only valid for movies that have been showing for two weeks. we were like...diao...this is such a stupid thing. which movie could possibly be on-screen for more than 2 weeks, other than harry potter or transformers. plus, we had waited so long to use this voucher and it is only valid from august to end of sept. duh..
anyway, the movie is great!! laughter all the way. Chris tucker is hilarious..Jackie Chan..hmmm, quite serious in the movie. but nvm, i love his action stunts..at his age, he looks fit and could still swing and run about just like in his previous action flicks. at the end of the movie, there are short ng scenes of them. it was so funny seeing jackie chan trying to pronouce secret as seafood, freeze as cheese. the word 'secret' really bothers him. he was being corrected so many times but in the end, he just replied in frustration, se-cret sounds so much like seafood when say it all together! it really sent me in laughter.
after the movie, took taxi back to his house again and watched incredible tales. its good..i like to watch it. played with xiaobai for a while, ate chicken wing, went to sleep for awhile. his bed is so comfortable that i slept till 3am. got a shock when i woke up..he sent me back home after that and i continued my beauty sleep till late morning..
bought tickets for 'rush hour 3' at JP and we thought we could use a movie discount voucher which is worth $2. too bad, the guy told us that it is only valid for movies that have been showing for two weeks. we were like...diao...this is such a stupid thing. which movie could possibly be on-screen for more than 2 weeks, other than harry potter or transformers. plus, we had waited so long to use this voucher and it is only valid from august to end of sept. duh..
anyway, the movie is great!! laughter all the way. Chris tucker is hilarious..Jackie Chan..hmmm, quite serious in the movie. but nvm, i love his action stunts..at his age, he looks fit and could still swing and run about just like in his previous action flicks. at the end of the movie, there are short ng scenes of them. it was so funny seeing jackie chan trying to pronouce secret as seafood, freeze as cheese. the word 'secret' really bothers him. he was being corrected so many times but in the end, he just replied in frustration, se-cret sounds so much like seafood when say it all together! it really sent me in laughter.
after the movie, took taxi back to his house again and watched incredible tales. its good..i like to watch it. played with xiaobai for a while, ate chicken wing, went to sleep for awhile. his bed is so comfortable that i slept till 3am. got a shock when i woke up..he sent me back home after that and i continued my beauty sleep till late morning..
Sunday, August 12, 2007
updates
hmmm..update for the past few days:
friday-taught tuition and had a quarrel with li. he shouted at me for the first time and the longest ever. i felt very disppointed so i decided to stay away from him for a few days.
sat-went to school for makeup lesson. quite alright and managed to understand what prof yao is talking abt. but again, first lesson is always the easiest, ha!. after that, went to compass point with sh for lunch b4 rushing to tuition. always get high blood pressure after teaching sam. dun understand why she is so lazy. think i shd really keep my health in check b4 i burst a blood vessel~definitely not worth it! aft tat, went to popular to look for assessment bks for my two other students. li smsed mi but i really dun haf the mood to reply him. and he smsed mi a few more times..after that, we started quarreling thru sms for a few hours. really tired after each quarrel. had a feeling that we are really not suitable cos of our thinking. wadever i say is like giving him alot of pressure which i din intend to. i felt that those r acheivable actions and are as easy as 1,2,3. but can see tat he doesn't feel comfortable to do it or wad. anyway, tat nite, while quarreling with him thru sms, i could no longer take it and cried myself to sleep. its so tired to quarrel.
sun-continued to quarrel again. think its the longest ever. nearly had a break-up. there's alot of things that he dun understand despite explaining to him numerous times. dunno issit cos of our age gap or? hai. but after that, we were okie oredy and went out. though we behaved like nothing happened, i guess it has put a strain on our relationship. its like an invisible wall slowly building up between us. i guess everything takes time to recover. seriously, a good communication is essential for a long-term relationship. without it, no matter how much u love him/her, u will eventually go your separate ways.
friday-taught tuition and had a quarrel with li. he shouted at me for the first time and the longest ever. i felt very disppointed so i decided to stay away from him for a few days.
sat-went to school for makeup lesson. quite alright and managed to understand what prof yao is talking abt. but again, first lesson is always the easiest, ha!. after that, went to compass point with sh for lunch b4 rushing to tuition. always get high blood pressure after teaching sam. dun understand why she is so lazy. think i shd really keep my health in check b4 i burst a blood vessel~definitely not worth it! aft tat, went to popular to look for assessment bks for my two other students. li smsed mi but i really dun haf the mood to reply him. and he smsed mi a few more times..after that, we started quarreling thru sms for a few hours. really tired after each quarrel. had a feeling that we are really not suitable cos of our thinking. wadever i say is like giving him alot of pressure which i din intend to. i felt that those r acheivable actions and are as easy as 1,2,3. but can see tat he doesn't feel comfortable to do it or wad. anyway, tat nite, while quarreling with him thru sms, i could no longer take it and cried myself to sleep. its so tired to quarrel.
sun-continued to quarrel again. think its the longest ever. nearly had a break-up. there's alot of things that he dun understand despite explaining to him numerous times. dunno issit cos of our age gap or? hai. but after that, we were okie oredy and went out. though we behaved like nothing happened, i guess it has put a strain on our relationship. its like an invisible wall slowly building up between us. i guess everything takes time to recover. seriously, a good communication is essential for a long-term relationship. without it, no matter how much u love him/her, u will eventually go your separate ways.
Friday, August 3, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
marriage
just ended my call with my aunt..i was wondering, what is marriage? why do two people of different gender fall in love and form a family with a completely uncertain future? why can two persons who had taken the vow to take care of each other break their promise? why does men do things that always make the women sad? does love have an expiry date? sometimes i don't understand, why are some men so flirty..going out till late at night when they have wives waiting for them to go home. of cos, i can't say the same for all men, there are some men who really take care of their families and there are some women who flirt outside knowing they have husbands and kids. but i sincerely hope that all those unhappy things that are surrounding my aunt now can be resolved soon. there is simply too little things that i can do for her, except listening to her pouring her woes. and, it breaks my heart to hear her cry. i hope her family can start anew..wishing everybody to be happy..
Sunday, July 15, 2007
irresponsible action
o, haven blog for some time. feeling body-ache all over. I went painting again at li's new place. their new home, i guess, is really very 'new', in the sense that there are still all lot to be done! painting, plastering, toilet, windows, doors etc, i guess its only 30% done. And helping him to paint results in not going for work yesterday. I feel guilty cos it is my responsibility to report for work since i'm scheduled. i guess i will be scolded/tell off by someone on this coming work-day. but on the other hand, if i dun help li, i guess he wun be able to finish the painting yesterday, considering the vast amount of things he still need to do and to be completed by 24th july. helping him to finish at least help him to lessen his workload but not going for work makes me an irresponsible person. the feeling is terrible. i shall make this irresponsible action of mine the first and the last.
Monday, June 25, 2007
成长
思念某人，
是因为你已将他（她）放在心底了。
因思念而心痛的时候，
是因为那个人此刻不在身边。
刚刚读了一本小说，让我感触很深。
作者说着，小朋友们常常希望自己快快长大，常常扮成熟。大人们却想尽办法保持年轻。追求自身无法拥有的东西，正是我们每一个人的翻版。
记得小时侯，我常常希望自己能够快高长大，因为只有这样，父母才能让我自由，让我飞。而且，我也能赚多一点钱，买我喜欢的东西。可是，当我真的长大成人时，才发现到很多事情都不是想象的那么简单。一个人在成长的过程所遇到的事是那么的多，那么的复杂。就如人们常说的：人生如戏，戏如人生。每一个人都在他们的生命里扮演着一个重要的角色。很多事情都只有自己知道，自己承受。朋友，亲戚在我们的生命力里只是一个过路人。
突然好像回到小时候，那么悠哉闲哉。
是因为你已将他（她）放在心底了。
因思念而心痛的时候，
是因为那个人此刻不在身边。
刚刚读了一本小说，让我感触很深。
作者说着，小朋友们常常希望自己快快长大，常常扮成熟。大人们却想尽办法保持年轻。追求自身无法拥有的东西，正是我们每一个人的翻版。
记得小时侯，我常常希望自己能够快高长大，因为只有这样，父母才能让我自由，让我飞。而且，我也能赚多一点钱，买我喜欢的东西。可是，当我真的长大成人时，才发现到很多事情都不是想象的那么简单。一个人在成长的过程所遇到的事是那么的多，那么的复杂。就如人们常说的：人生如戏，戏如人生。每一个人都在他们的生命里扮演着一个重要的角色。很多事情都只有自己知道，自己承受。朋友，亲戚在我们的生命力里只是一个过路人。
突然好像回到小时候，那么悠哉闲哉。
Monday, May 21, 2007
had a quarrel with li yest. again. bcos of me throwing temper on him over an english cocker spaniel. hai, i'm so petty. we seems to quarrel every two weeks and it really makes both of us tiring. i hurt him the most yesterday for saying those hurtful words and i really regret it. but its too late. wads done cannot be undone. sometimes i kept thinking, will we still be happy like in the past?
Thursday, May 17, 2007
i feel so fat now. went to eat steamboat with li yest. i guess we din eat steamboat for half a yr le. eat as if i din eat meat for yrs.
just know that joy got an intern. happy for her. but i kept wondering if my decision to stick to astronomy was a good choice or not. all of my clique has an intern now except me. hmmm..did i make a good choice? i kept thinking to myself. astronomy is a subject that i've always wanted to study. and it's my last yr now. if i dun take, i might have to overload myself or give it a miss. hai. i think i shouldn't think too much le..just attend the classes and forget about the internship.
just know that joy got an intern. happy for her. but i kept wondering if my decision to stick to astronomy was a good choice or not. all of my clique has an intern now except me. hmmm..did i make a good choice? i kept thinking to myself. astronomy is a subject that i've always wanted to study. and it's my last yr now. if i dun take, i might have to overload myself or give it a miss. hai. i think i shouldn't think too much le..just attend the classes and forget about the internship.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
animals
this bunny has big long ears, i think its a giant rabbit..its huge..
i like this golden retriever, i think its a she cos her eyes look so wen rou.
u see the blue parrot? it really attract my attention, i love the blue color, its really beautiful.
i dun really like cats but this cat makes me stop
and look at it. i find it so cute.
this hammy is cute, the way it lets the head out only..i love it.
this husky is very special. it has a blue right eye and a red left eye. it left a deep impression on me.
i love animals. li bought me to the pasir ris farmway last week. we saw alot of dogs and there were some puppy sale. have an urge to buy one but luckily didn't. need to think more about my pocket, cannot be so rash in doing things. but i was veri happy when li brought me there. he always make me happy except his stubborness. hai. but overall, he dotes on me and i feel very xing fu for most of the time.
sian day
today is a boring day. met sh earlier to get my clothes and lunch with her. we ate at hong kong cafe, the food was pretty good. after talking for around 2 hours, i went home. got cramp and felt like vomiting. its so uncomfortable and i felt like lying down on my bed and sleep but i cant cos i've drank one cup of hot teh-xi down. hai, really cant drink tea and coffee, they make my heart beat faster and i felt so restless. feel like studying astronomy as i've a quiz on thursday, but no mood lei. shitz. need to find something to do le. i miss li but i lazy to find him cos i feel so tired and uncomfortable.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
i'm in a lousy mood today. why cant everything go smoothly? and the weather today is hot. like yesterday, everytime i want to go swimming, it will be raining and why doesn't it rain today too? don't get it. sometimes when u want to do something, it will not always be smooth. there is always a lot of obstacles. i'm so frustrated.
why issit that whenever you give advice, people simply ignore and then things happened, making people frustrated. sometimes, i've a thousands and thousands of whys..but i can't find any answer to them.
why issit that whenever you give advice, people simply ignore and then things happened, making people frustrated. sometimes, i've a thousands and thousands of whys..but i can't find any answer to them.
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
astronomy
exams are over!!! hip hip hooray!
but..now, inter-sem has started..n its my favorite topic, Astronomy. The prof is hilarious, filling the lessons with nvm la, lor..all the singlish. i guess i'll completely master the art of singlish at the end of five weeks.
anyway, the astronomy lesson is fun indeed. we get to learn how humans r created, the galaxy, stars. o, i love stars, it is so small when we look at it but it is in fact bigger than earth and it contains elements that contributes significantly to the solar system, not to mention, Earth.
its amazing how humans have the intelligence to discover stars, moon, sun and the different planets and it really intrigues me to learn more about it.
but..now, inter-sem has started..n its my favorite topic, Astronomy. The prof is hilarious, filling the lessons with nvm la, lor..all the singlish. i guess i'll completely master the art of singlish at the end of five weeks.
anyway, the astronomy lesson is fun indeed. we get to learn how humans r created, the galaxy, stars. o, i love stars, it is so small when we look at it but it is in fact bigger than earth and it contains elements that contributes significantly to the solar system, not to mention, Earth.
its amazing how humans have the intelligence to discover stars, moon, sun and the different planets and it really intrigues me to learn more about it.
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